When I was younger I played in the orchestra at the Royal Conservatory in Canada. ( just a fancy name for kids playing in churches) An interesting thing happens to some people when they play in such a big band. The smallest missed note can topple The Magic Flute or send Beethoven's 7th into the rubbish bin...But when everyone is connected and playing together a wonderful stream of consciousness happens. There's no time to think or hide, there's only this ecstatic connection to your band mates and the music that surprisingly flows like a newly born stream. Some people know this feeling. Maybe one of you , in this terrifying electric wilderness, does too. If so say hi, I'm real. I'm in northern California, and I hope I can find that one girl to make a life with. Addendum: recently been studying the works of Karl Ruck and have discovered some hidden wonders related to the Eleusian mysteries, which kinda not that surprisingly, involved ancient women from the Armenian part of the world to the Mediterranean Greeks to form one of man's great jumps forward. I'd love to talk with someone who understand the pagans of ancient times and I'm asking way too much, but we'll see.